Fear and Loathing
When your body attacks itself limiting an active lifestyle, fear and disappointment creep into every waking moment. As the moments run on into days and weeks depression turns to loathing. It is like a little stream staying in it too long and soon you find yourself floating face down in a river. I am so happy to have survived the last five months. Unlike Hunter S. I didn't resort to drugs and alcohol. I put future and past out of my head as much as I could and stayed focused in the moment. When I could put enough moments like that together I understood I was healing but still suffering. All life is suffering I understand that now.
- posted by Jamie Cowen @ 7:32 AM